...L...O...V...E...

Learn to love the people who are with you at present
Forget the people in the past and thank them for hurting you
which led you to love the people you have right now.

When you love someone, you'll do crazy things
you can't explain, you'll deny the truth and believe in lies.
When you love someone, you sacrifice,
give everything you've got and don't think twice.
You risk it all no matter what.

Everything in life is temporary because everything changes.
That is why it takes courage to love, knowing it might end anytime...
having faith will make it last.
Friends are not the one who laugh when you laugh and cry when you cry.
They are the ones who make you laugh and stop you from crying.
Love is the feeling we fall in and out of and every time we fall off,
we learn to hold on tighter...
Hoping that next time, we may never have to let go.

They say when love knocks at your door, open it.
But do you know that sometimes love enters through the back
door and before you begin to notice it,
it's on it's way out.

Have you ever loved only to let it go?..
Have you ever hated someone and loved him so?..
Have you ever missed someone so bad it made you cry?..
Have you ever seen someone left alone without knowing why?

Lucky is the man who wins the first love of a woman
but luckier is the woman who wins the last love of a man.
Love is not the right word to say when you feel guilty nor
the right word to say when you like a person but
love really matters when we share our thoughts, our minds and our hearts...

Life has a way of changing things but not
the joy that friendship brings,
for friendship is like the shining moon,
makes each night a brighter one.

Love is not for beauty or color of the skin,
but for a heart that is loyal within,
for beauty fades and the skin would grow old
but a heart that is loyal will never turn cold.

If someone hurts you, betrays you, or breaks your heart,
forgive them for they have helped you learn about trust
and the importance of being cautious to whom you open your heart.

A love is easy to feel, so hard to explain;
so easy to get, so hard to let go;
so easy to spell, so hard to define...
and yet everyone is still taking the risk.
That's love...

We are all a little weird and life's a little weird,
and when we find someone whose weirdness is compatible with ours,
we join up with them and fall in love in mutual weirdness
and call it LOVE...

Never be afraid to fall in love.
It may hurt a lot,
it may give you aches and pain,
but if you don't follow your heart;
in the end you will cry even more for not giving love a chance.

Don't run ahead of God.
Let Him direct your steps.
He has plans and He has His time.
God's clock is never one minute early nor one minute late.
It always strikes right on time.

If someone loves you,
love them back not only because they love you,
but also because they are teaching you to love and opening your heart and eyes
to things you have never seen or felt without them.

The past is meant to be used as a tool for the future.
Bad experiences indeed make you bitter but the lessons
learned should make you better.

ON LETTING GO
it hurts to see someone you love happy with somebody else;
but wouldn't it hurt you more to see that person unhappy...with you?
When you find arms that will hold you at your weakest,
eyes that will see you at your ugliest,
lips that will kiss you in both instances,
and a heart that will love you at your worst,
then you have found true love.

Someday,
someone might come into your life
and love you in a way you always wanted.

If your someday was yesterday.. LEARN
If your someday is tomorrow.. HOPE
If your someday is today.. CHERISH

misses my abah so much...

yesterday got a message from my abah...he send it to my other (DIGI) number...the message was so short n not finished...thought he wrongly send to me...maybe wanna send to one of his frens...asking him did he wrongly send the message???...and the answer that i got was so sweet n feel like going back to penang to see him n hug him as i always do...the message was "NO! it's 4 u. nothing much just miss all of u in KL".pergh...that's my abah...he cannot be too long separated with her daughters n mama...he'll surely call us at least 2days once...me n abah don't use sms as our comunication...i'll rather call n hear his voice...but my 2 little sis always "sms"es with him...everyday i shud say...yesterday was the 1st time we "sms"es till my credit finished...hahaha...the 3 of us were planning to go back to penang next week...receiving messages like that may make our heart ache...sian abah...musti sunyi je umah tuh without us kan???...takder org nak lawan tumbuk...takder org nak berebut remote astro...berebut channel...berebut astro card yg full version tuh...hahaha...n the most thing that he'll misses most i guess will be going to the stadium watching football match without us accompany him anymore...hehe...takpa...takpa...nanti bulan may kita tengok MY TEAM lawan MESIA kay abah???...tp abah belanja arr tiket nya...hahahahaha...while discussing with my 2 sis...suddenly we got message from abah...he'll coming to kl next week maybe...but the decision is yet to be decided by mama...hehe...yea...yea...abah coming...mama coming...n absolutely maktok n wan also coming...coz abah kater...nanti soh maktok masak sedap2 nak bawak dtg kl tuk korang 3...yea...luv u guys...n miss u guys in penang...cam lame je tak balik penang nih...ye ke???...

dyana...karipap...abg aziz

yumm...yummm...besh...besh...mmg besh...karipap is one of my favourite kuih instead of popia...tak sangka abg aziz pon same jugak...since i'm a little gurl mmg da suka mkn karipap nih...tak kira la kentang...ayam...daging or sardin isi nyer...all of it mmg my favourite...but the most favourite one will be kentang la...ocz me myself mmg suka sgt mkn kentang or fries...dari kecik mama mmg kasik i mkn fries...kentang with nasik...kentang with bubur...kentang goreng...kentang bakar...rebus n etc...etc...etc...sebab nyer???...mase kekecik dolu allergic sgt ngan ayam...certain ikan...udang...sotong...seafood la most probably...cian kan???...bile da besau nih...mmg da tak minat nak mkn semua tuh...that's why me suke makan mekdi...suke makan fastfood...mmg asyik mengulang ituh jerk darik kecik...hehe...nasik mmg tak minat sgt...melainkan kalo ader lauk tempe n tauhu n kentang...uikshhh...itu mmg favourite la...takyah nak ckp bnyk...terus beli aje...hehe...

ok la...citer pasal karipap balik...kat my opis nih ader jual karipap yg besh...mmg sedap sgt...every morning mmg slalu beli...satu ringgit for me n satu ringgit for abg aziz...tgk arr sape sampai dolu...kalo me pege bekpest dolu...me la belikan...if abg aziz pege bekpest dolu...abg ziz la belikan...tp slalu nyer...mmg i la yg pege dolu...kan abg aziz???...hahahaha...skang pon da rasa nak mkn karipap lagik...besh nyer kalo dapat panas2...yummm...yummm...yummmyyy...sedap nyer...siap minum ngan teh tarik...wow...sedap nyer...hingga menjilat jari...bak kater kfc...i'm lovin it...bak kate mekdi la...hehe...

ok la...da takmo citer lagik...nnti teringat lagik nak makan karipap...kang tak pasal2 tido awal lak mlm nih sebab tak sabar nak tunggu bekpest sok...nak beli karipap yg sedap tuh...hahaha...chow guys...

yaaahhoooo...

yea...yea...AT LAST...!!!...my ako mustapha yg comei tuh da kuar dalam mya zara...lambat benor la...da 14 episodes tunggu baru kuar...yyyaaahhhooooo...I'M LOVIN IT...chow...

LESSONs ON LIFE...

There was a man who had four sons. He wanted his sons to learn not to judge things too quickly. So he sent them each on a quest, in turn, to go and look at a pear tree that was a great distance away. The first son went in the winter, the second in the spring, the third in summer, and the youngest son in the fall. When they had all gone and come back, he called them together to describe what they had seen. The first son said that the tree was ugly, bent, and twisted. The second son said no it was covered with green buds and full of promise. The third son disagreed; he said it was laden with blossoms that smelled so sweet and looked so beautiful, it was the most graceful thing he had ever seen. The last son disagreed with all of them; he said it was ripe and drooping with fruit, full of life and fulfillment. The man then explained to his sons that they were all right, because they had each seen but only one season in the tree's life. He told them that you cannot judge a tree, or a person, by only one season, and that the essence of who they are and the pleasure, joy, and love that come from that life can only be measured at the end, when all the seasons are up. If you give up when it's winter, you will miss the promise of your spring, the beauty of your summer, fulfillment of your fall.

Moral :

Don't let the pain of one season destroy the joy of all the rest. Don't judge life by one difficult season. Persevere through the difficult patches and better times are sure to come some time or later. There's always a new door open for us.

PYAN's reception...

February, 12, 2006...it's pyan side nyer reception lak...takder la bnyk keje sgt kat sini...my day only started on that very day...arrived at pyan's house around 930am...tgk mak andam make up...pastuh kene halau from bilik coz mak andam nak naikkan seri pengantin...org lain takleh tgk...first time nih tau...ader eks camtuh...tp cam same jerk...hehe...opsss...sori...around 10am start the photoshot by tomen...tetibe terjadik assistant dier pulak eks...tp on da same day da kena favourite phrase Donald Trump..."UR FIRED"...hahahahaha...camane eks???...lom sempat 24hrs jadik assistant da kena fired...hehe...around 12pm da start bersiap for konvoi to dewan...sampai masjid around 120pm...semanyang zohor than straight away pege dewan...mase nih pengantin naik keter kaler ijau...fuyooo...besh tuh...da arr reception nyer bertemakan ijau...besh...besh...mmg besh...suke la...suke sgt2...bersanding...makan...ingat nak balik but pengantin asked us to wait...tgu punya tunggu...tunggu punya tunggu...tangkap pics bebnyk lagik...my bos ader datang gak...around 440pm balik umah pyan balik...take my belongings...mintak tlg pka antar pege masjid balik...naik keter zaff laling...terus balik umah...mmg ngantok giler arr...tp takleh pulak nak tido sampai la kol 115am...arinih da whole day ngantok...ngantok giler seh...dunno why...one whole day mata cam nak tido ja...mmg da takleh perform lagik nih...nak balik awal...tp cam malas...nak balik umah pon rase jauh...hehe...padahal 5minit jerk da sampai...ehm...ok la...da tak larat nak type lagik...da takder idea...nak tido la jap...tido sambil bukak mate...I HAVE ANOTHER 5 MINUTES TILL MY OFF DUTY...

sumthing to ponder...

...WANITA DAN APPLE...

~WANITA~boleh diibaratkan sebuah apple...yang tak berkualiti amat mudah diperolehi kerana ia berguguran di atas tanah...tapi apple yang tak mampu dibeli berada di puncak...susah dipetik...sukar digapai...terkadang apple risau...kenapa diriku belum dipetik???...lantas ia merendahkan martabatnya dan menggugurkan diri menyembah bumi...sedangkan ia sebenarnya ALLAH jadikan begitu tinggi martabatnya sehingga tiada siapa yang berani memetiknya...hanya pemuda yang benar-benar hebat dan ikhals sahaja mampu...mungkin bukan di dunia tapi di akhirat...biarlah jodoh bukan di dunia asalkan cinta ILAHI mengiringi...

p/s : got it from abg aziz...konon nak perli la tuh since ada apple merah on my table...eleh...ckp jerk la nak apple tuh...i kan snowhite...so...kene la ader apple merah atas meja...tuh pon sue yg kasik...hehe...tak makan2 lagik pon...cantek arr apple tuh...sayang mau makan...jadik decoration jerk atas table nih leh tak???...

:::MYA ZARA:::

MYA ZARA...ehm...one of the samarinda slot rite now...acted by azhar sulaiman (nape nak wat dier gagap arr???)...arash mohamed...jasmin hamid (pandai tul wat ngade2 tuh)...ady putra...eja (da kurus sgt arr...da tak cantek)...n besh part is...my AKO MUSTAPHA yg comei...hehe...at first dun feel like watching this slot...ye arr...i'm not really a fan of ieja...tak minat sgt tgk dier acting...the same old ieja...lembut...sgt2 lembut smpi i yg rase phenat...n she do likes pink a lot i guess...tp in one of the advert...suddenly ternampak ader AKO MUSTAPHA yg comei tuh...terus jatuh hati...cam org kater la...dari mata turun ke hati...hehe...terus melekat nak tgk this slot...tp...tunggu punya tunggu...waiting with patience...tunggu lagik...from episode to episode...but AKO MUSTAPHA yg comei tak kuar lagik...awat arrr???...ingatkan tis week coz last week in the scenes of next episode...tp tak kuar2 pong...hampeh tul arr...asyik-asyik mya zara ngan mr. yong...lagik2 diaorg...tak pon...lagik2 ezahar n azlan...AKO MUSTAPHA yg comei tuh biler la pulak...hehe...teremosional lak...ok la...tetiba da blurrr...lenkali citer lagik la pasal AKO MUSTAPHA yg comei nih...

hari paling bengang abad ini...!!!

Date : 05/02/06
Time : From AM to PM
Mood : It's a sunny "HOT" day...!!!
Venue : Home...Jln TAR...SOGO...HOME...

my day start early in the morning...bgn pepagi tuh da rase tak besh...cam sakit jerk perut...salah makan ke smlm???...ehm...bior arr...kol 10am camtuh da kuar umah...around 11:10am da sampai kat Burger King Masjid Jamek...tunggu sha sampei kol 11:45am...pastuh nak makan aper ye???...da half an hour tunggu sha pon still can't make up my mind wut to eat...sampai la sha da beli...i da makan her fries 5...6 batang baru la pege order...da sampai depan mamat kaunter tuh pun still tatau nak order aper...mamat tuh da dua kali tanyer..."yes miss, may i have ur order pls"...tp aku jawab..."yes, having here"...hahaha...apa punya answer da...tak menjawab soklan langsung...sampai la dia nak bukak mulut for the 3 question...then i cepat2 cakap..."bk broiler medium set...change fries to onion ring..."...hahaha...muka mamat tuh mmg da cam bengang pon...tp pasal ko la mamat...nak wat camana...org tgh konpius nak mkn aper nih...ehm...

pastuh jejln to SEMUA HOUSE...mak oii...banyak perubahan btoi la kat JLN TAR nih...as i could remember...almost 2years da tak datang...why???...not sure but i'm not really fond of this pasar mlm...ramai sgt org nyer...phening arr kalo ramai2 nih...rase cam nak pengsan jerk...hehe...then sha show me branded make up yg diaorg jual with rm10 jerk...loreal la...maybeline la...bior btoi...rm1o ja???...sha beli blusker n maskara for tina...me???...mmg ada hati nak beli...tp kalo da beli...pakai ke???...ehm...kompem tak pakai...so...takyah la beli...

sampai SEMUA HOUSE...jejln arr carik baju kurung ready made nyer...bnyk baju yg cantek...tp da masok butik kan...mahal tuh rega nyer...macam tak berbaloi lak...baik beli kain pastuh maktok jahitkan...lagik besh...then kuar balik...jejln along the road...jumpa satu kedai nih...FIRST LADY...ehm...cam besh jerk...masok n terus pilih 2-3 baju kurung which i guess mmg the exact same colour as wut sue had bought me for her pengapit before...masok fitting room terus try...da try tuh...rase cam aacchhunn nnnyaaa...hehe...pastuh angkat kepala pandang lampu...terus tergerak hati..."alamak lampu kuning la...better check kat luar...lampu kuning slalu tipu kaler..."...da try...dapat size yg sepatut nyer...terus kuar n did the payment happily ever after...i thought it would be happily ever after la...

pastuh terus lintas jln nak pege SOGO...sha nak beli barang...tengah besh jejln tuh...terbukak la pulak plastic bag FIRST LADY td...jeng jeng jeng...terus gelabah seh...sha pon gelabah n asked why...show sha the baju kurung n lagik la sha glabah...WUT???...kuning air???...bukan cream...jeng...jeng...jeng...ehm...tp da beli tak per la...leh pakai kat keje...tp nak pakai mase sue kawen kalo leh...terus call sue...citer punyer citer...ngadu punyer ngadu...the only question yg sue ask..."lampu kuning kan td???"...yup...mmg lampu kuning pon...hehe...mmg salah sendirik kan???...tak pe la...tak kisah pong...it's sue's big day...kalo sue rase tak masok...i pakai jerk balik kebaya yg sue belikan tuh...i want everything to be perfect on her big day...

lepas shopping kat SOGO...terus balik umah...da arr naik bus...da lama tak naik bus nih...panas takyah nak ckp la...aircond pon tak pasang...tp dlm tensen2...bengang2...panas2...leh pulak i tido ngan nyenyak nyer dlm bus tuh...hahaha...da sampai umah...hepy da sket...nak bukak semua kipas yg ada n get ready for JUARA LAGU...sampai jerk umah...eh...awat kedai bawah takder lektrik nih...awat kedai mkn pki lilin nih???...naik atas...WUT...!!!...NO LEKTRIK...!!!...hampeh tul arr...tanyer opah kat sebelah...dari kol 2 takder lektrik...lepak sampai kol 7:30pm...takder gak lektrik...mmg da panas tahap gunung berapi nih...aaarrgghhh...terus call iza n asked her to pick me up...nak tido umah iza la...sampai umah izamterud mandi...pas mandi terus tgk juara lagu...pastuh apprentice...reba...terus ZzzzzZZZZzzzzZZZZ...END OF MY HARI PALING BENGANG ABAD INI...

my BESHfren reception...la...la...lala...la...(",)...

ALHAMDULILAH...at last...my BESHfren sue had tied a knot with pyan last saturday nite...after maghrib...to be exact...8:42pm, january, 28...sue is legally pyan's wife...everything was according to plan...the nite was great...and the next day...the reception at sue's house begun...however...before these two big days for my BESHfren sue...she n her hubby had struggle many days n nites n months preparing this big event of their lives...as me...my part was not as big as theirs...as the "pengapit" for sue...i just help here n there when i'm needed...so...my journey in helping for sue's wedding exactly took place last wednesday...january,25...and the journey begins now...!!!

JANUARY, 25 -> half day of work...had my lunch with sue n izmir at mekdi's...yeah...eating my yummy chicken properity...seday seh...quite sad rite now coz mekdi had stopped prosperity...need to wait till next CNY then...ehm...reached Taman Sri Lekir around 6:47pm...cleaned ourselves...makan nasik time...then me n sue start to decorate the hantaran...sue's mom was bz with the curtains...

JANUARY, 26 -> woke up around 9am...hehe...lambat ye...kantoi arr...had our breakfast n continue with the hantaran...clean n decorate pengantin's room too...ahhcchhuunn nnnyyaaaa...hehe...went out with sue...beli baju...beli barang...n macam-macam lagik arr...tis nite was the best nite for sue i guess...her big bro...yob...kaklong aka dragon @ dinasour cute...qila...kimi...alin n dina balik from Moscow...terjadik la sandiwara semasa n cerekarama air mata that nite...hehe...however...i'm happy for sue since their back for her reception...so...the family is complete...lengkap...da takyah ader sesaper lagik da...hehe...opsss...lupa lak...ader adeq bongsu kesayangan nih jugak kan???...hehe...

JANUARY, 27 -> accompanied sue to facial...sauna...lulur...mandi susu...cam besh jerk nengok...hehe...siap ader massage lagik tuh...me wat henna on both of my hand...rasa cam cantek la...but now...bile da balik opis rasa cam alien lak...ader corak2 bunge on my luvly hands nih...hehe...went back around 6pm...finished up the hantaran n room...continue with doorgifts for pyan's n sue's side...

JANUARY, 28 -> this was the day...sue jadik pyan's wife after maghrib...ader makan-makan sket at her house n balik tido...this nite i mmg da tak larat...around 1am i went to wash my face n lay down for a while...sekali tido sampai pagi daaa...hehe...pity sue...rearrange n decorate back her pelamin by her own...rase bersalah gak tetido but myself mmg da collapse arrr that nite...sorry ye sue...hehe...

JANUARY, 29 -> bersanding...makan beradab...n taking pictures...went back to penang around 5pm following pika...senang sket...takyah la nak naik bus...hehe...

many things i learned n got last weekend...i learned that...it was so hard to get married...a lot of things n money had to spent...takleh silap satu pon...nnti reception tak besh...bile tak besh...semua pon serba tak kena...n the best thing was...dapat jadik adeq bongsu...hahaha...chow...